5.11.2012

A Life Lately List

(I wrote this post a month ago but forgot to post it...so I'm posting it now, but back dating it to then!)

1. Reconnected.  I restored my iPhone.  Do you know that I went 6 weeks without a phone at all in November and December, then almost 4 months with the cheapest most ghetto phone available.  Crazy.  Finally, I made some kind of peace with losing all of the many photos on my phone, (including newborn Selah), and much to my husband's delight, I asked him to finally restored it.  I learned 3 things from this experience:  a. Back up your photos regularly.  (I know, duh right?)  b. An iPhone is totally worth it - now that I have mine back I can't believe I went so long without it!  Much easier to manage life, capture moments, communicate, and find your way around. :) Also, I'm slowly learning to love instagram.  I recently just realized I had followers - ha.  c. It's so sad to lose photos...any photos.  But photos aren't the actual memories themselves.  And because of this experience I have printed more pictures, paid attention to what I'm capturing, and learned the value of making new memories rather than dwell on what's been lost in the past. I also spent so much time remembering the photos lost that now they won't be easily forgotten.

2.  Walking with Jesus.  My husband is taking a two week Jesus study trip to Israel.  It's a crazy story of how it all came to be, but God totally opened the door and made it happen.  Kevin felt so led to pursue the possibility, and it's pretty incredible how it all came to be.  We've never been apart for that long, in the entire 4 yrs. we've known each other.  The sacrifice on my side is worth it...because I believe in what God wants to do in his heart and life.  And I'm thrilled to see how his ministry and our family will be impacted for a lifetime.  I would be so, so grateful if you would pray for his safety, his health, and that God does an amazing work in Kevin's heart and life while he's there.  I'm so excited he gets to experience this...but please pray for my nerves and my heart as I pray for him and wait for him to come home!!

3.  Blogging.  No more empty 'returning to blog' promises.  :)  Of course once I claimed that on my last post, my baby girl took a sabbatical from napping.  Thankfully, she has returned to happy sleeping times throughout the day.  Good for mommy too!  So who knows if I'll be frequent...it's always my hope. Though I assure you if I am, the posts will haphazard until I get any rhythm back.  Or maybe forever.  Whatever.  Breastfeeding baby brain will get you every time if you ask me. ;)



4.  Speaking of baby.  We're still loving life with our little girl of course.  I love being a mom.  Don't get me wrong...I experience exhaustion, frustration, and self-induced mommy guilt with the best of them.  I struggle with organization and keeping a clean house; with consistency and keeping up with schedules.  But I also experience ridiculous and overwhelming joy and gratitude and fun in the mommy- hood.  It's the most rewarding experience I've ever had.  Sometimes I feel the freedom to live in grace; other times I allow the weight of the world's perceived expectations to overwhelm me.  This is when I stay away from Pinterest, Facebook, beautifully kept blogs and homes, and anything else that I allow to get in my head and tempt me to look for my value anywhere but from God.  At times I find joy in all these things...but at other times I just have to step away for a bit. Recently someone mentioned my blog and said, "I hope your joy is honest."  I tried not to read too much into it, as it's always difficult to blog if you worry too much about what others think.  For whatever reason it's become much more difficult since I had Selah for me to just put it all out there and not care.  I guess the motherhood is a sensitive world.  So different in so many ways for each of us.  I don't want to apologize for having a positive perspective, or worry about judgment if I'm having a bad day and decide to wear my heart on my sleeve.  Of course my blog is honest...it's one of my highest priorities for writing.  But I will always view the world and my life from the perspective of living an undeserved life that I'm grateful for.  Breathing itself is undeserved for us all...but by the grace of God he keeps letting us do it.  I really believe that.  Of course life itself is filled with sad days, happy days, depressed days and overjoyed ones as well.  I prayed for years to be a mom...and I consider it an undeserved blessing and an overwhelming privilege.  I will spend my years as one doing my very best to focus on the positive...even in the midst of crazy.  My prayer is that God will draw me more and more away from what people think...because it's exhausting.

5. Army crawl and Velcro diapers.  A couple weeks ago Selah and I got home from a girls' weekend with my friends from my old bible study in Cincinnati...right when I put her on the floor she decided to show me her new trick - she started army crawling!!  It was so awesome to see her go where she wanted to go for the first time.  And to watch my little fish propel herself across the floor.  I of course am getting a whole new kind of workout, but it's still the cutest thing.  Oh, and baby girl can now undo the velcro on the 4 or 5 velcro cloth diapers we have.  So funny...and cute to see her so proud of herself when she realizes she just accomplished something, though she's not sure quite what. :) Either the pants need to be on or snaps it is.

4.08.2012

My Sweet Selah (a 6 month post)

(FYI - I also published a post I wrote when she was 5 months - but back-dated it to Feb. 16th!)


Oh my goodness, this is what happens every single month - I plan a post in my mind the whole month then she's already older! My baby girl is totally 7 months old is 2 days, but I'm in denial about how fast this past month flew by!


We definitely hit our sweet spot in a lot of ways at 6 months. Selah is taking two good naps a day, and I'm finally working out nearly every day, and feeling a million times better. She gets up a couple times a night for a 10 minute comfort feeding, and I know my next step will be getting her up and just rocking her back to sleep without eating. We're just not there yet. Though at 6 months Selah also started sleeping in her crib at naps and bedtime. It was my goal to have her there by that time, and it has (thankfully!) been very successful. But we did love that rock n play for quite awhile! Kevin finally admitted to me that there was a time when he wasn't real sure I'd ever put her in there. Ha! I'm so thankful he stayed graceful and never got impatient with me about this. It was hard for me, as I sure did love being able to reach over and hold her little hand!


Between 3 and 4 months I starting practicing letting her self-soothe when she was fussy not crying, and at 4 months I would put her in the crib for short periods of time to look at the mobile, or maybe take a short nap, so she would start to get used to it. It was so difficult for me to make that nighttime transition though. It still feels weird that she's down the hall from me. I don't always prefer it, though I could totally tell when it was time, and when the space and the comfort of it was the best for her. And of course I just might have slept in there on the floor that first night! I also make plenty of trips down the hall just to see and feel her breathing. It always reminds me to be thankful for this precious life. She does seem to sleep great in there. Now she is a great self-soother, and almost always gets herself to sleep without getting upset, which I'm so thankful for. (Now if she's over-tired it might take a little more effort.) Selah only has tears if there's a real reason it seems. I will say that while I'm not a follower of Babywise, I did find a book that has been helpful called "Healthy Sleep Habits, Happy Child," and has a lot of good stuff in it that really seemed to also fit with my instincts and desires, while also helping me make wise choices for Selah.
I don't regret one single second of holding my sweet baby girl, or letting her take naps in my lap, which happened a lot those first 3 months. She is growing so fast from a baby to a little girl, and I treasure every moment we've been blessed to spend with her so far. I'm especially thankful for those months because now that I have my energy back it seems like there's so much I want to fit in during nap times. Sometimes I have to remind myself to be still like I was so often then.

Every night I lay my hands on her, praise the Lord for her life, and pray in the name of Jesus for his continued protection of her life. My favorite sight in the whole world is to look in and seek her little chest and belly rise up and down, as the Lord continues to give her each beautiful breath. I would rather stare at the wonder of my baby girl than any great wonder of the world. I am overflowing with gratitude for this life the Lord allows me to live. Kevin and I intensely enjoy our little family, including sweet Chai, who loves our baby girl as well. He was a little nervous at first, but now we can totally tell how protective he is of her, and how much he loves to see her after we've been out of the house for a bit. She also just loves to get her hands on him, and lights up when she sees him.
Selah is not yet sitting up, but she is rolling all across the room and loving her toys. She can also work her feet to propel herself all around in a circle. She loves to shake anything that rattles, and play with anything that crinkles. She also loves banging her toys together so they make noise. She really loves reading books, (and chewing on them), and she still really enjoys bath time. Her favorite part is getting to chew on a washcloth. Kevin and I love singing to her, and making her smile and laugh. She's a great car rider, and extremely flexible in most any situation. She really seems to love people, and each week she enjoys the nursery at church. (We started that at 5 months). She does seem to get a cold from it most every week, which we don't love. Oh, and right around my brother's birthday at the end of March she started waving on her own...so cute! Kevin has been working with her even more on this since then.


(Check out that laundry - totally keeping it real!)

Breastfeeding is still going great, and it is the number one thing I am so thankful I persevered through and worked hard at. It's been a very special experience for me, more than I would have thought. Our pediatrician had told us at 4 weeks that I would always probably have to supplement, but at 6 weeks, with the wonderful help of my lactation consultant and some curl my toes hard work, we never had to supplement again. (and I was able to stop pumping 10 times a day - that was awful.) It's amazing what a different experience the whole thing is by 3 months! Not everyone's preference, I know (and respect!), but it has been something I've loved. I know we are now right on the edge of what it will be like once Selah realizes she can get down from my lap on her own! Though we're not rushing that mobile phase. :)
She makes the cutest, funniest noises, that we call the pterodactyl. It's hilarious. She does this especially when she wants to get your attention or "talk." She also loves to make all kinds of noises with her mouth, and she sticks her tongue out a lot. We just love all her little personality traits.


Besides the Jesus Storybook Bible and her Goodnight Bible, our favorite books to read are "I Love You This Much," "On the Night You Were Born," "God Created Everything," "Pat the Bunny," "Mommy Hugs," "Guess How Much I Love You," "Wherever You Are," and "Ten Tiny Puppies." She also likes all the Eric Carle books. My favorite moments of the day include when I sing to her, dance with her, and greet her super smiling face after a good nap. I also love feeding her and staring into those amazing blue eyes of hers. We also love our walks. She could contentedly go forever in that stroller it seems. Maybe she experiences God through nature much like her mom. :) Hopefully we'll be taking her hiking during this beautiful spring soon.

She is truly fascinating to both Kevin and I. We are constantly commenting on how neat she is, and we just can't tell her enough how much we love her. Kevin always tells her how we love how God made her. We call her Selah girl, Baby girl, Sweet girl, and Baby Love - probaby in that order. We sing the first few lines of the song, "Baby Love" to her what seems like a hundred times a day...sometimes changing the first words to "Selah girl, my Selah girl, I love you oh how I love you girl!" Then I say, 'doo-ta-doo, do do da doo-ooh, do do do' which honestly seems like her favorite line. Ha. :) She also loves the song, "I love you, a bushel and a peck," and my grandma recently taught me the rest of it when she sang it to Selah! It was so sweet. Selah is also fond of bouncing on my knee, or anything you do to try to make her laugh. She really gets a kick out of our craziness.
6 months also brough Selah's first March Madness experience - which was pretty amazing given the fact that we live in Kentucky, her daddy's a crazy UK fan and UK won it all! The whole tournament was fun though - it seemed like there were so many good games this year, and we enjoyed every one! I also made my first quilt and Selah tried solid food. (which so far she's a little indifferent to.) She also was so brave for her shots. Kevin and I on the other hand, well, it was not our favorite thing!

It's just so crazy how much I feel joy in being Selah's mom, and how I have the most unbelievable peace that this is what I was created for. And that must be why I longed for, dreamed about, and desperately prayed that this would be a reality in my life. Which is why I thank the Lord over and over every day that He gives me to enjoy it. He is incredibly gracious and an amazing gift giver, that's for sure!
Well, the sunshine, springtime, and regular nap times have brought with them some extra energy and focus for me, thankfully! Hopefully that means I'm also coming more regularly back to blogging. Though my computer is broken so that doesn't make it much easier, I have to say. But I do feel like I have much to catch up on, and a lot to share about what God is teaching me lately. And I sure do love and miss my bloggy friendships! Thanks for reading!

2.28.2012

A Celebration of 'Not Yet'



(Fyi...I wrote this about a week and a half ago, thus the rapid changes.  I figured I'd better post it before I had to mark off everything! :)

As of today, Selah's not yet...

sleeping through the night...
eating solid foods...
sleeping in her crib all the time...
crawling...
sitting up on her own...
saying her first words... (though she has been doing a "mmm-uh" thing when she's hungry)
clapping...
sitting in a high chair...
needing discipline...
taking a bath without the newborn insert...(though her feet hang over:)
rolling over from back to front...  (2/25)
rolling over from front to back...
reaching out to us...
been in a swing at the park... (just today actually!)


One night last week, (well more like 4am), I was snuggling Selah after a feeding. She rested her sweet head on my shoulder and was all curled up close to me. As I was staring at her face I couldn't help but be swept right back to those first days and nights with her in the hospital, when her tiny self was all curled up on my chest and I couldn't take my eyes off her. And all I could think in these new moments of discovery with my 5 month old was, "Wow, wow, wow." Truly the amazement hasn't lessened in the least. There isn't a day that goes by that Kevin and I don't say, "She's just so neat...," or, "Isn't she so awesome?" When she falls asleep we just stare in wonder at this beautiful girl God so uniquely created. It's incredible and we are only grow in gratitude.


I never want to forget this precious time when our baby girl, our firstborn, is still our baby.  She's already doing so much and I'm not at all interested in rushing what's next.  Because I will blink my eyes and my Selah girl will be running and begging to be chased, sleeping straight through and not gifting me with middle of the night smiles and snuggles, she'll be feeding herself, communicating with words, needing correction, snuggling and chatting with toys in her crib, and melting our hearts in all new entirely wonderful ways.  Until then, I'm staying right here and loving right now.  Because I just can't get enough.  What a generous God we have, to give such an amazing gift of getting to love a child.  Nothing like it.  And I'm loving it.


I am constantly overcome with where we are in her life...on the edge of so much.  So many "milestones" that will be celebrated, so many things people look forward to.  But I insist on taking a pause right where we are... to celebrate the right now, the not yet.

2.16.2012

Finally an Update! (a 5 month post)


So I have obviously been absent from the online world. It all just got a little too "noisy" for me, and I have seriously reflected on how exactly I want to contribute. I've also just simply been soaking up every second with my little love. My oh-so-sweet Selah girl.

The stage I'm in right now is, "Wow, wow, wow." I'm just so overwhelmingly amazed, more and more each day, at the way God created my daughter. I remember at the beginning of her life I would constantly say, "You are just so neat!" Then once she hit that two month "wide awake" stage, I remember feeling like it was Christmas every day. Each day I felt blessed with a new and amazing discovery about her. She would surprise me with something else that would just melt my heart. It's just so beautifully overwhelming, this first time parenting. It's so awesome that each day is somewhat of a surprise, because everyday is filled with firsts for her and us. Sweet Selah can bring me to tears in 2 seconds flat, simply because I am so, so thankful to get to be her mom. The ultimate dream come true to be entrusted with this life. I do focus intentionally each day to do whatever I can to squeeze as much joy out of each moment that I can, not ever wanting to take this blessing for granted. Having only one car, we tend to be at home perhaps more than we might be, but I honestly treasure these sweet, simple days soaking up a new little life. And I'm enjoying learning the homemaker role as well. (Though figuring out laundry, dinner, cleaning and organization does NOT come naturally to me...nor is it necessarily my favorite. ;) Often I joke with Kevin that Matilda or Gertrude or Hilda (my imaginary cleaning ladies) didn't show up today, and they'll have to be fired. Then I suggest that I receive their pay. Ha.

Play dates are definitely oh-so refreshing I have to say, as I've realized the undeniable necessity to connect and share with other moms of young ones. I really want to work harder at making these more regular, as I haven't exactly excelled in the friendship area since I had Selah. It's been an interesting transition for me to rediscover myself and my personality in the role of mom, while mustering up the energy and effort to reach out to and connect with others. My most difficult month was definitely between weeks 8 and 12. My days definitely ran together a bit then. Some painful, physical stuff came around as a result from my long labor. (Thankfully gone now). I also had to transition to a new kind of tired, as my little love wasn't so much sleeping like a newborn in the daytime anymore, and was still getting up at least a couple times a night. This is also when she became much more interested in the world around her and wanted to be a part of everything. (This hasn't changed:) At this time I also started becoming really convicted by the "comparision" trap in the parenting world. Certainly a dangerous temptation that is definitely not from God.

As I mentioned, at 2 months Selah seemed to wake up and take notice. She gained some strength, batting at her toys on her favorite playmat, pushing down and with her legs and "standing" on our laps, and smiling a lot. She still pretty much slept whenever we drove in the car, and continued to eat at least every 3 hours. She also grew to love, love the swing. At the end of 2 months she started getting on an eat for 20-30 min., (down from about an hour!), play for 45 min. to an hour, then sleep for 45 min. to a little over an hour, with a longer two hour nap in the afternoon. I thought we had it down great. She also slept for over 8 hours the night before Thanksgiving! Well, the second I started saying that's what our days were like, Selah apparently decided to switch things up shortly after turning 3 months. At this stage I felt like she left the bitty newborn days behind. I remember in the days and weeks leading up to that 3 month mark I would snuggle my tiny baby close and try to memorize every second of that special newborn, sleepy sweet time. I knew we were on the edge of some getting older transitions. What's awesome is how much I constantly try to hold so tightly to the current moments...only to be amazed at how much I love the ones that come next just as much!

When she turned 3 months, shortly before Christmas, she became as fun as ever. Joyful and playful, spunky and still snuggly. She really started grabbing and holding onto things, and handling a little more time on her tummy. She also started staying awake on trips, and didn't care much for being in her carseat when we were out and about. But she started loving being held facing outward and seeing everything. She also continued to love doing daily "chores" with me, reading books, and "dancing" to music. She became a lot more patient and flexible, and it's been so neat to see her "mature" into a trusting little one content to go with the flow. A super cute new development was her ability to be "distracted" while eating, whenever daddy would come home and start talking. She started taking breaks and looking up, then laughing. I remember it being so hilarious when she started doing this. So funny. At the end of 3 months she also celebrated her first Christmas, which was so surreal and sweet. Of course she slept through the gift opening during both our families' celebrations. :)

Then came 4 months - goodbye newborn baby girl, hello big girl Selah! Our little lady's big personality started coming out more than ever. She became much more comfortable with others, even more expressive day to day, and stronger than ever. Also much less interested in daytime sleep! Though we are definitelly instilling quiet crib time early around here! She starting kicking more than ever, especially in the bath, which she loves. She also started wanting to touch and interact with whatever book or toy we were reading or playing with. We entered into the age of reaching out and grabbing for everything, then wanting to put it in her mouth. She also started loving the exersaucer and all things that crinkle. She is up for going anywhere at anytime, it seems, and is really flexible about sleeping and eating in different places - which I'm thankful for. She is fascinated by other children, and definitely gets a kick out of and adores her daddy. I feel like this month flew by faster than any other. So crazy. It seems like the bigger she gets, the faster she grows up! Selah also got her first cold, and when we went to the doctor she weighed 14 lbs 8 oz and was 25 and 1\2 inches - in the 95th percentile! Wow - she does not get her height from her 5 ft 3 mother, that's for sure. At 4 months she also started enjoying being rocked and sang to before bedtime, which I love. When she was itty bitty she preferred quiet walking/pacing and being bounced or patted. We went to hear my brother preach at the end of January and she was crying her eyes out from weariness as we got in the car that night to head back home...but calmed down and went to sleep when I sang to her...love, love, love. Also one of my most favorite things ever. I sing the same songs to her that my mom used to sing to me, and that I used to sing the little ones I nannied for several years. That's another interesting thing...When Selah turned 3 and 1/2 to 4 months, I realized that age to be more familiar to me, that's when I started babysitting a few of the little ones I did in the past. I am loving that now it's my very own daughter...and that I finally had the privilege of enjoying and experiencing those precious first few new baby months myself.

Now we're about 2 weeks into having a 5 month old...wow. It is just so hard to believe. Our lives have been powerfully changed in a beautiful way since our sweet girl's life began. We are just so amazed at how she's growing up...and it's absolutely CRAZY that we can see 6 months. How time flies - for real. I seriously don't think it will get any less amazing either...how could it ever get normal or old to see a sweet life God uniquely created grow, learn, and discover. Simply fascinating. And I know what we're on the edge of...a whole new stage and age for sure. She is a strong and determined girl...she will work hard to get what she is after, not giving up easily. She also will reach up and grab my face, loving to hold tight. I'm convinced that her first word will be "gentle." Ha. She is "talking" and babbling and making her requests known a lot. And she just loves being talked to. She remains a great eater, enjoys walks in what I call her "big girl stroller," as we graduated from the bassinet. She is a tall girl so far, and is wearing 6 month clothing...which she'll be grown out of by 6 months!

I still check to make sure she's breathing and okay throughout the night, at the same time praying for her protection and thanking God over and over for the undeserved blessings that she and Kevin are to me. Kevin and I have grown in such interesting ways since becomiing parents, and have just been humbled over and over. We are as hungry as ever to honor him and give him all the glory for our lives, being submitted to how he calls us to live them, and committed to not wasting the days he so graciously allows us to live. We are rough around the edges, and certainly works in progress...but so thankful to continually be changed and taught.

A couple nights ago, well more like 4am, I fed Selah, then just held her as she laid her head on my shoulder/chest and curled up to go back to sleep. I was taken right back to the day she was born, as I layed in that hospital room with this brand new beautiful tiny baby curled up on my chest in the same position, and I couldn't stop staring at her. That was the most overwhelming emotion I have ever felt...and it was revisted just the other night. I couldn't stop staring at her face, just like when she was born, and I literally just kept thinking, "Wow, wow, wow." I continue to be in awe and overcome by a love so powerful that it's difficult to put into words.

Yesterday I was telling Kevin about this and comparing it to what we must be like to God. As very own creativity and creation - each so unique and different and special, I have a feeling that we cannot even grasp the intensity of emotion he has for each and every one of us. And just like I love to watch my Selah girl sleep, and I delight in the sweet stillness of her rest, I think God must especially delight in seeing his children, his creation, when our hearts are at rest and we are at peace...fully trusting in our Maker. I love when Selah falls asleep in my arms...and am challenged to rest more often in the Lord's. Yesterday she rested her head on Kevin's shoulder on her own for the first time when he picked her up. I think he was almost brought to tears. He just loves having his little girl relax and rest into his arms, fully trusting in him as her daddy. What a special moment.

I am certain there will be many more tear-inducing moments, yet am fully enjoying soaking up all the moments of today. I have learned that slowly but surely a post pregnant stomach shrinks, the irregular sleep becomes normal and somewhat strangely comforting, and even in my most exhausted moments, when I'm aching for my sweet girl to take a good nap, once she falls asleep I look so forward to when she wakes up. It's crazy and I love it. I hope to get it together and get to sharing more in the days ahead. I feel like God is teaching me something new every day.

We are delighted to be parents, and drawn closer to our heavenly Father by getting to experience the love for a child. Amazing. It felt like I had to wait so long to experience this, but I would have waited a lifetime for this kind of joy. I'm just so thankful that wasn't the case.

1.06.2012

4 months for her, 31 years for me

Well, today is my 31st birthday.  Strangely a bit harder to swallow then 30.  Though last year any birthday stress was greatly overshadowed by my joy from finding out a few weeks prior that I was pregnant with my first baby!!  I remember being quite sick and at the same time amazed that our little one was only the size of a poppyseed.  How far we've come!  In 2 days she'll be 4 months old.  Wow.  My Selah girl is just so amazing, and is growing into the most beautiful little lady.  She truly is a complete joy.  I have been forever changed by this past year.  And though I'm now officially "in my thirties," (and in a different, more tired body!), I'm humbled and grateful to have experienced another year of life.  God is so good, and I am so thankful.  30 was truly an adventure, and I'm excited to see what this new year beholds.  In the meantime, here are some pics of our sweet girl.  I just love her so much.


12.07.2011

My First Cloth Diaper Post!!


I am so excited about this post.  It is my first, but will certainly not be my last.  To be honest with you, I'm amazed and delighted at how much I am enjoying and having fun with cloth diapers.  Who would have thought!  I strongly disliked always prefacing during pregnancy that I was going to try, but knew it might not work out.  I wanted to be truly committed from the beginning.  And I've quickly learned about parenting - a lot of it is definitely making choices for your family, and sticking with it.  Then being flexible when something's not working.  Raising kids is so personal and different for everyone, and I think that's what makes it fun - especially when we support and share with each other what's working and what's not.  Anyway...

  First, here are pics of everything I started with.  I also had another pack of g diaper disposable inserts, but I took these pics at 1 month old, after we had gone through a pack and a half of those inserts, using the tiny g diapers and disposable inserts about half the time, and disposable diapers the other half.  I wish I would have kept better track of how many disposables we used.  We didn't buy any because of what had been gifted to us, but we went through about 4 packages of Pampers newborn swaddlers.  We filled up one of those diaper genie type things at least 3 times.  Those first days are crazy!!! :)

This is what I started with for my cloth diapering journey.

Newborn G diaper bundle, (gift), plus a pack of 6 cloth inserts (gift card)

This is the tiny G

This is the size small G diaper, with an example of a one disposable insert and one cloth.

Two Best Bottom shells, (one was a gift), and 2 inserts (one small, one medium) to try

You can snap in the inserts and just change them out if the shell doesn't get dirty and can be wiped clean.

Three Tots Bots Easy Fit diapers (My first ones - a gift from my mom at a baby shower - SO exciting!:)

The pocket type insert is attached.

One Bum Genius Elemental All-In-One

7 Indian Unbleached prefolds, because they're cheap and I thought they would be good extra inserts for the G diapers.  (They were actually too big - only used these in desperate, diapers in the laundry moments)

Bum Genius Odor Remover to break down stinky bacteria on poo diapers, Thirsties bottom cleaner to use with cloth wipes if we chose, Shake It Up pail freshener by Rockin Green, Grovia Magic Stick - a cloth diaper safe bottom treatment/barrier

A Planetwise Wet/Dry bag (smaller than I thought, but good now for in the diaper bag)

Rockin Green Laundry Detergent

In this post I'm going to do two things; first, explain a couple different diaper options for those who don't know.  (Lots of people in my life).  Please know that if you don't know anything about, or don't care anything about cloth diapers, this might sound overwhelming and a bit complicated.  But it's not, I promise.  Secondly, I'm going to talk about what I liked, what I didn't, and how this starting "stash" worked for us in the newborn phase.  We went to cloth diapers completely full time at 1 month, when we were better established at home, and I refused to open any more disposables or buy any.  (We got over $200 in gift cards by returning some gifted disposable diapers!!)  Then I'll touch briefly on what we're doing now and how I like it.
Okay, so the basic different types of diapers I've worked with (keep in mind Selah was 6 lb 14 oz when we brought her home):

*Hybrid diapers/All-in-2 (can be used with cloth or disposable inserts, usually has 2 or 3 parts)
G diapers are an example of this.  Some can also be called "All-in-twos" because you snap in an insert and can often just change it out if the shell doesn't get dirty -

This was a regular size small G diaper at a little less than one month - I don't know if I have a pic of a tiny G - bummer!  They were so cute and fit perfectly for a little more than a month.  Then they were too small.  But definitely an economical way to cloth diaper a newborn.  Best Bottoms are also an example of a hybrid diaper, which I couldn't get to fit quite right with the snaps in the beginning because of her bigger belly and tiny legs.  We have since gotten one with velcro that I love - more on that later.

*All In One - this means the diaper is all in one piece, you just put it on and take it off, like a disposable diaper.  This didn't fit quite right because of her tiny little legs until more like 9 or so pounds.  It's also a "one size," which means it's adjustable from birth to potty training, so it saves money though sacrifices a more perfect "sized" fit.



*Pocket diaper - this means you stuff the diaper with some sort of absorbant insert.  These are usually a little less expensive than all-in-ones, and the absorbancy can be changed based on your needs.  You do have to stuff them out of the laundry though. 

The Easy Fits are one kind of an example of this, also they are also an all-in-one, as the pocket is attached, which makes for easy stuffing.  This is an awesome diaper for sure, though on the pricier end.  When I started I didn't have a traditional pocket diaper, though I do now, so I have some opinions. :)

As far as how it was cloth diapering a brand new baby, mostly with disposable inserts, and 6 cloth inserts - totally doable.  Now technically if this were a full time plan would it save money?  Not exactly.  The g diaper disposable (and cloth!) inserts are pretty pricey, and I won't buy more when those run out, unless we're traveling.  G diapers also only come sized, (for a trimmer and cute fit).  But this makes them way more expensive.  They definitely are cute. 

Do I think we would be able to do cloth from the beginning next time?  Yes.  Only because we won't be first time parents and I'll be use to doing the extra load of laundry every one to two days.  (and Kevin will know how to do it ;)  We'll also have more to work with.  This time, because she went through so many at first, I didn't have enough to give it a try (full time) even with my one size diapers. 

At about 1 month old I started really enjoying the g diaper inserts, especially because occasionally we could just change out the cloth insert and only sometimes the plastic part.  (With breastfed poo it's often both parts).  Then, once I had used them for about a month as our main diaper, mixed in with the 3 Easy Fits, 1 Bum Genius All-In-One, and a Fuzzibunz, they got really annoying to have to "assemble" (snap in the plastic part, stuff in the cloth insert) every time I got them out of the wash.  And while it was nice they weren't as bulky as the one size diapers, they also seemed to get smaller faster, because our little girl is long and has a bit of a belly.  We also had some leaks.  When she was about 2 months old, I ended up getting a few more diapers and put the g diapers away.  I might have even liked the g's better and longer if I had more cloth inserts - but I didn't want to spend money on those.  So right now I still have just enough diapers to do a load every 24 hrs. or so. 

Right now I have 11 pocket or all in one diapers, and 5 hybrid/all in twos, (a few of which I mostly use when we're out and about or doing laundry. I don't have a lot of hybrid inserts, so I don't use these to their full potential right now)  To do laundry every 2 or more days I'm thinking it would be ideal to have 20-24 main diapers.  I didn't invest in a large amount from the beginning because it's just too much fun to research and buy them one at a time! (For me) And they are always coming out with something in the cloth diaper world.  Since I don't plan on making it financially not worth it by buying more than we need just for the fun of it, (though that's tempting!!), I'm taking my time with the budget we will invest in them.  

The newborn g diaper bundle was a great buy though, and it was half gifted to me by my mom. It was on sale at diapers.com for $125.00, and I used a promo code to get another $25 off. There were 12 tiny g's and 6 small size g's in there. So $100 for 18 diapers is awesome. (So is a mom who likes gifting things to her new grandbaby!) I also thought I could get more for my money by using prefolds as inserts...that didn't work so well, mostly because I don't like messing with prefolds. (Old fashioned diapers) A LOT of people out there love them with "snappis" and covers because they're so inexpensive. Not so sure how daddy friendly they'd be though!
A cloth diaper averages between $15-$20, which is often the cost of a pack of diapers that you throw away.  So if you make sensible choices, it is a huge money saver.  Obviously the start up cost is where the bulk of the money goes.  There are many great websites that have done awesome cost breakdowns and charts.  Since math is not my thing, I'm not interested in doing that.  I will point you to those instead!!  Softbums has a great little diaper pdf/booklet that shows several charts of different diaper types, cost comparisons and breakdowns for their own as well as other diapers.  It's a great resource! Here and here are also great resources for comparisons.

Here are other webistes I also really like and visit often:

Dirty Diaper Laundry (tons of awesome video reviews)


As far as the laundry, I don't mind it a bit.  We often (not always) spray each dirty diaper with the Bum Genius odor remover so it starts breaking down the stinky bacteria.  I also have a larger wet bag and an antibacterial pail liner that I put in the Diaper Dekor.  We don't have any problems with stink at this point.  When I'm ready to wash, I take the pail liner or wet bag that we have filled with the dirty diapers, do a cold rinse, a cold wash w/ two scoops of Rockin Green Hard Rock and an extra rinse, and finally a hot regular wash.  (Sometimes I do a cold wash with a scoop of detergent, then a hot wash with a scoop of detergent, then a cold extra rinse.)  Then I dry them on extra low.  While it is probably better to line dry them, I don't currently have enough diapers (or sunshine!) to wait for them to dry before I need them.  But this system is working great.  Also, I am sometimes using the g diaper cloth inserts in my other hybrid diapers as back ups when I need them.  Because we are breastfeeding we don't yet need a diaper sprayer - but I have enough money left on a Babies R Us gift card that I'm going to use to invest in one of those soon.

So I'll tell you/show you what I have now, and follow this post up with some cloth diaper reviews!  Fun!  I have read/watched so many diaper reviews on line that I've lost count.  It is just so fascinating, (for a new cloth diapering mom anyway:).  Kevin's trying to convince me to do a video review of some of them.  We'll see.  Sounds intimidating.

Here's my current "stash" (that's the term the cloth diaper world uses - I think it's funny):

-3 Bum Genius Elemental All-In-Ones  - organic cotton inside (Two I got during the cottonbabies.com seconds sale - cute, trim, and super simple - but they really do take a long time to dry.)


-1 Bum Genius 4.0 pocket diaper artist series - stay-dry micro suede inside (good quality, really durable diaper, pretty trim):


-1 Rumparooz in tulip - stay dry micro chamois inside (GREAT for breastfed babies (internal gussets), soft inside, starts fitting when they're tiny, fastest for me to put on, never leaks, great colors; they are a bit bulky):



-1 Fuzzibunz Elite in tootie frootie - stay dry micro fleece inside (Trim and cute - love the minky instead of microfiber insert, but it's so trim that it can be difficult/annoying to stuff):


-3 Tots Bots Easy Fit - bamboo inside (easy to use, great fit, well made, soft bamboo inside, trim):



- 2 Little Bee Diaper Co. pocket diapers  - bamboo or micro suede inside (Awesome christian company and mission, and these never leak!)


-1 Softbums in pink giraffe - stay dry micro fleece insert (an all in 2 - this is super soft, has a great sizing mechanism and is a neat diaper!):


-3 Best Bottom shells  - stay dry micro fleece insert  (2 snaps, 1 (strong!) velcro; 3 snap-in inserts - never leaks, great gussets!)



(I call this her soccer player diaper :)



-1 Grovia shell (30% off discontinued cosmos color) (no grovia inserts - cute and trim diaper):

(This has a flip insert in it, which makes it not so trim!)



-6 g diaper cloth inserts (babies r us gift card)
-3 flip inserts (to use as inexpensive extra inserts in the Grovia and Best Bottoms)

 Oh, and we do use disposable wipes.  The cloth wipes were a little weird for Kevin and a little annoying for how many diapers we're currently changing.  I tried to make my own out of paper towels, but that was a serious fail.  I do prefer the chlorine free Seventh Generation or Earth's Best (my favorite).

I keep wanting to decide on a favorite diaper, (which is also why I didn't want to buy all of one kind), but there is seriously something I love and often something I might change about each diaper.  They all seem to have their strengths and weaknesses.  Though at this stage of the game I'm growing more and more fond of my Rumparooz, (because it has many features I love), and it's hard to go wrong with a Bum Genius!  I'm looking forward to trying a new one they have coming out soon called the Freetime.  I also am loving the Little Bee Diapers.  They never leak and for every diaper you purchase one is donated to an orphan.  I love that.  The Tots Bots Easy Fit was my first 'love,' and is Kevin's favorite.  It has a great fit and a bamboo inner, which is soft and antibacterial, but not stay dry, so the baby feels wet.  Selah doesn't always like that.  Still, it's a great diaper and one I would provide for babysitters, because of the one step and velcro.  For travel I've had great success with Grovia and Best Bottoms shells (because they're easy to clean by hand and dry), with Flip disposable inserts (inexpensive!). 

Who am I kidding - I love them all! ;) I do think it's nice to have a variety for different needs and occasions.  I'll go into more detail when I do some reviews of them.  Also, at the beginning I was sure I'd prefer snaps for their strength.  While this is mostly true now and might be true in the long run or with a toddler who can take velcro off, I have to say I like velcro in certain brands because of its ease of use (and for this age).  I definitely prefer snaps in pockets and all-in-ones, and velcro in all-in-twos/hybrids so far.  (Best Bottoms, Grovia, and Tots Bots have great velcro).

 Overall, I do seem to think that Bum Genius, Rumparooz, and Tots Bots are great companies and definitely know what they're doing - they make great diapers.  And it is important to me that these diapers last, as I hope to use them for multiple children.  From what I can tell so far, my opinions are continually tweaked as Selah grows.

What things do I base my decisions on?  I would say reviews, materials, (snaps, strong velcro, soft and durable inside, etc.), colors/patterns, (having a variety also allows for greater enjoyment of all the cuteness!), and fit (if it leaks it doesn't matter how cute it is).  If a great diaper is at too high of a price, I'd rather wait for a sale or discount rather than get a cheaper diaper that might not last as long or work as well.  I guess I prioritize quality over quantity.  But I'm also willing to do the laundry.

I will say, before I started I was concerned I wouldn't want to deal with stuffing pockets at all.  I have found that really isn't too big of a deal.  It's kind of like matching socks.  Now, I have to be honest in saying I have been able to avoid unstuffing dirty diapers so far, as they have agitated out in the wash.  (Except for the Oh Katy).  Technically your supposed to pull out the insert before washing.  I am afraid I would forget to do this on occasion if I always had to. 

Some of my favorite online cloth diaper stores and blogs:

Wee Little Changes (Free Shipping, friendly owners - You can click on the button on my blog)
Itsy Bitsy Bums (Free shipping over $35 - great selection, very informative)
Cottonbabies (Free shipping, company that makes makes Bum Genius)
Abby's Lane (Free shipping, also good selection)
Mom's Milk Boutique (Free shipping over $25; frequent deals and specials)
Nicki's Diapers (Free shipping on pocket diapers and Best Bottoms diapers)
Sweet Bottoms Boutique (free shipping and a friendly, small, mom owned company)
Sweet Angel Diapers - (Free shipping over $11, always great discount codes, often freebies)
Kelly's Closet - (one of the bigger cloth diaper sites, not great shipping for small purchases, but often offering a free diaper with purchases over a certain amount - I've never done this, so I'm not sure what kind of diaper is the free one!)
The Green Baby Store (They had good black friday sales, good selection, and I used the code DSMAMA for $2 shipping.  AND I got a 30% off code for another purchase when my diaper came!)

Keep in mind, I haven't bought from all these stores, but when you buy one diaper at a time, you do get to try out the service of many! :)

I also always check diaperpin.com and look under the sales/announcements section to get discount codes and sales for online diaper sites.  They also have a review section.

So that's my first cloth diaper post!  I realize it might sound a little crazy to those of you completely uninterested in the cloth diaper world.  But for me it's been a fun part of being a new mom.  It's hard for me to decide who to think of when I'm writing this post, because that would definitely affect what kind of info. I'd include.  Please ask any questions you may have - I'd love to answer them with my very limited experience in a follow-up post!