When I see images like this I totally feel like breaking out into worship - isn't God AMAZING?!
Last night I told Kevin that I know better than that. God knows my heart and my intentions, and I sincerely do not ever want to bring pain to someone else. And I certainly don't want to miss honoring this beautiful and amazing blessing growing inside of me. I think I can especially honor the dreams of others by sincerely celebrating mine, with humble gratitude. And to pray. Oh sweet friends how I pray for you...and so many I know personally and read about on here. Now more than ever.
I have had to learn over and over again that it is not my goal in life to please others, but to glorify God alone. It seems as though this situation has tempted me to focus on pleasing others once again. So I am going to try to start going back to wearing my heart on my sleeve, praying for grace and guidance all the way. I want this blog to be a reflection of who I am and what God is doing and has done in Kevin and I's lives.
That said, on to the baby's latest!!!
I am 16 weeks - crazy! - but so exciting. We heard the heartbeat for the 3rd time yesterday, which is always amazing. Kevin might have used his iphone and spy skills to secretly record it so we could listen over and over. :) I definitely have a sweet baby bump, and I love rubbing my belly. (Though my student thinks I've lost my mind.) I LOVE being pregnant - no sucking in my tummy or worrying about my curves, and the responsibility of being so intentional about caring for my little one. I truly feel like a mommy. It is priceless. We love praying for the baby together, and the other night we sang to him or her. I already have my bedtime lullaby "playlist"...made of songs my mom used to sing to me, a couple favorite hymns, and songs I used to sing to the sweet little one I babysat/nannied for 8 years, every time I tucked her in. (Who is turning 10 today - Happy birthday Ingrid!!!)
How Far Along: 16 Weeks!
Size of baby: An avocado (quite amazing considering he/she started as a poppyseed!!!)
Total Weight Gain/Loss: Before nauseousness and my first doctor's appt. I gained 5 lbs - yikes! Then with the flu I lost 3. I've gained one back. So according to the doctor I've gained 1 lb so far. Which she said is fine because she assures us over and over that the baby is getting just what she/he needs.
Maternity Clothes: Not yet. I tried on maternity jeans this weekend. My backside said NO THANK YOU! I do live in yoga or workout pants which I love.
Gender: We're going to be SURPRISED!
Baby's Name: We are in serious prayer about this huge responsibility. :) Shockingly, though I'm incredibly indecisive, I have a great peace about both a boy name and a girl name that we love and have prayed about so far. We'll see how they hold up! Of course, this will also not be shared until the baby comes. (We love surprises!)
Movement: Can't wait to feel the first "flutter" - hopefully anytime!
Sleep: I'm not sleeping well this week. I'm trying to get used to sleeping on my side and it reallys hurts my hips. (My doctor assured me it's not because they stick out. :) I'm still working on figuring out the perfect body pillow thing. I also am starting to get too hungry at night because I don't feel like eating much for dinner.
What I miss: Artificial sweetner. :)
Cravings: Food is still very literally leaving a bad taste in my mouth. Nothing sounds good or looks good, and I don't have a crazy appetite. But I thoroughly enjoyed a house salad at Outback the other day. And I love every and all FRUIT!
Symptoms: Waning nauseousness - (though I totally lost my cookies after a Qdoba lunch last week!) I rarely make it through a meal without starting to feel sick by the end. (Unless it's a bowl of cereal!) Also fatique, growing belly, hormone breakouts, and a very real lack of patience with others...weird but true - this one has totally surprised me but has been very apparent in my first trimester. Oh, and I'm quite emotional and dramatic. Pregnancy related...not sure about that! ;)
Best Moment this week: Hearing the heartbeat again! Singing to the baby, Kevin being so incredibly sweet and complimentary to me, and hearing him talk to my belly...well, actually the baby. :)
I'm looking forward to... eventually having our own permanent place...which we are totally trusting and believing in God's timing for. We will be so grateful when it is time, and we are enjoying the cozy blessings of our current dwellings. (The log cabin - that is a post in and of itself! :) I am so excited about creating a sweet nursery.
Happy Wednesday to you!!