Tears of A Teacher

Well, there are only 3 days of school left.  Wow.  It is really hitting me today.  My first year of teaching has been nothing short of incredibly challenging in so many ways, yet has taught me more than I could have ever imagined... and oh, how I have come to love those children!  Several times today, my mind has started pondering the absence of these amazing little people in my daily life, and I start getting choked up.  I have had a 3rd and 4th grade mixed class, and many of you remember, those years are definitely impressionable ones.  I will truly miss getting to pour into their hearts, minds, and lives every day, and see the shaping of their individual personalities, no matter how exhausted it has allowed me to be over the past several months.  It will be so hard to see them go in their many different directions.

How wonderful it is that these precious kids get really sentimental and sweet this time of year, showing their true colors of how they really feel.  I am determined to make the next 3 days incredibly special for each of them.  Because at the end of the day, I know that the most important things I have taught them can not be found in books.  I pray I have led them well, and spoken truth to them that they will hold in their hearts forever, even if they forget it for some years between now and then.

Yet I know that they are ultimately God's children, he is their greatest teacher, and he has such a great plan for their lives.  He can take care of them...and I can forever pray for them.  At this point, it is impossible to know what the future holds, or if I will ever teach a class like this again.  But God placed me in that school for such a time as this, and I will never doubt for a second his purposes in doing so.

Now I must not spend the roughly 21 hours I will have with them worrying about what I didn't teach them or the times my frustration was apparent.  Instead, I must focus on the moments God was evident in me, and poured out His love through me.  Although I was far from perfect for these kids, they taught me more than I will ever know, and more importantly, they know above all else that I am for them in this life.

I can't wait to share the memories that will be made in the next few days.  Until then, here are some pics of our zoo field trip last week.  It was so much fun.  Unfortunately I can't show you their sweet faces, but check out these beautiful examples of God's amazing creativity.  Love it!


Tiffany said...

Okay, Page, you had me crying. I was thinking about all the challenges that I faced during my 4 years of teaching. It was not the school I wanted to be in and I tried to get other jobs so many times and it just never happened. I know it was because I was exactly where God wanted me to be. It was a rough school with kids who just needed me to love them. That was my specialty as a teacher. I definitely could have taught better but no other teacher was going to love them like I did! I was crazy about those kids and think about them a lot. It was a rough few years but worth it all and changed me for the better. I learned so much from those kids and the experiences I had there. God is so good.

I would be thrilled if you were my babies teacher and I mean that! : ) Enjoy.

Page said...

Thank you Tiffany!!! That seriously means alot. These are definitely bitter sweet days as a teacher, and I'm trying not to take any moment for granted. And I'm trusting God will take care of next year and once again put me with the kids who need me most! :)

Lori said...

You are so sweet! I loved reading this - you are such an amazing woman and teacher. I know that those children were so blessed to have you this year.